Dear Diary

This is very shocking news for me, it been going on undiagnosed disease for years and years. Now my new doc who is women's health general surgeon, she is a woman, very open minded and love her friendly also her patience with me, of my emotional in pains and chronic pains with many health conditions that show up often. Now she told me that she had guts feeling that was bladder had called Interstitial Cystitis, there is no cure for that. She want do some surgery on it to clean it up then put some cocktail inside of bladder to reliever the pains. and do some laser too, After that, she will put me on therapy and oral medication to stop the chronic pains also gave me the paper of list what should not eat or can eat with to aviod the bladder flares. It was very depressed for me because how can it be cured? I want it to be cure! The researcher been working on it. trying to find the cure for IC sufferer. As long as i have supportives from my family and friends, but I cant wait for pain-free in few months after surgery. It was so hard for me in my life, after had my daughter, I almost lost her in miscarriage, my doc saved her. She is my preious baby, Thaine, my son too early to have childbirth in my 8 months pregnant, I was so sick throught out two pregnancys then after awhile, had four babies and lost it in miscarriages. It was so sad but be happy that got two beautiful children, I feel sorry forward to many women who unable to have any child. My loves and thoughts toward to them, I understood of their pains and sorrow.